Today we were counting our blessings in the year 2012. Although it isn't New Years, it does not mean we cannot reflect on all that has happened in the past year. I thought long and hard, well not that hard, but it was definitely something I wanted to share with the adults.
In the past year, our fellowship has truly grown. We have learned to lean on each other and confide in each other. I am so blessed to have each and every one of them in my life.
"They were always my friends, but now it is like we are birth sisters."
Our church has had this problem ever since it started, it was hard to get everyone together into one mindset and all, but this year God really brought all of us together. We experienced things together, and just to see how much we thirst for God's word, it is really encouraging. I don't usually name names on the blog, but they are the special girls in my life.

Dear FROW girls,

To my FROW girls, Frances, Sabrina, Stephanie, Jacqueline, Niki, Florence, Winnie, Tanya, Olvie, Mandee, and Charlotte. Throughout this year we have laughed together, chilled together, made fun of each other together, and shared our heart's thoughts so freely and I am so thankful and feel so blessed to have each and every one of you in my life. We encouraged each other, and supported each other through our school troubles, spiritual troubles, and boy troubles. Although as a fellowship we have grown together, our girls are especially 'tight'. May God truly bless each and every one of you, as you all have such kind, warm, throughtful hearts and also the heart to serve the Lord.

Thank you for being a part of my life, and may we continue to laugh, cry, and grow together for the years to come.

<3

As the day is coming closer, reality hits me even harder, and it definitely shows myself that I am in too deep.
Why am I investing so much time on something that won't have a ending/result?
It's not often that I fall so deep for somebody, and also feel like there is a chance. But whenever I look at it, I don't see how we would ever end up together.
Everything about this situation eats me up but at the same time I should not be letting these things control my life.
God needs to be in charge of my life and the way it would go.
If God has planned for me to have someone in my life or have him in my life, I am willing to give to listen entirely on God.
I am not in a rush for it, I've waited so long, I don't mind waiting more time.
One thing for sure, and it is related to something that happened recently. Something happened to him, and he wouldn't tell me. For the time I was in the darkness I learned to depend in God and also not to ask questions. I am not nosy by nature, but definitely I want to care. I learned to give him space.
I prayed to God, and I prayed to Him, "I don't know what is wrong with him right now, and he doesn't have to tell me, but if it makes him better then I am willing to give up instant noodles for life." To you it may not mean anything, but it is one of my most favourite kind of meal in the world. And things did start to get better an things did happen for the better. God I will keep my promise to you, I will not eat instant noodles, as it is for my health and also because I promised.

I keep thinking I have a chance with him, but it's just the part of me that wants it to happen. Reading too much into things that happen between us, and it makes me more hopeful.
I have to stop.
THEN extra things come to my knowledge, and it's just impossible to get over him :(

I have to write a 10 page group assignment by myself... due tomorrow
I have a test to study for tomorrow....
I have to clean my room so that people can do my windows...by Friday.
I can't eat solids for 24 hours...

I want to snuggle under blankets and forget all this....

That was how I started out the week. I knew there were so many things on my plate... but a girl's got to do what a girl's got to do. I got through Monday fine... until there was a change in groups, and now I am alone in doing my INB345 assignment.

Ok, no big deal. I can do fine without them. I just need an extension. I still have to study for my SIB555 test. COME'ON! I just have everything to do this week. Today I got to school, went through first class and found out we were assigned a final assignment, and we weren't allowed to pick our groups.

At least I'm working with people who are reliable. I still have to look over the assignment and get started on it so that I have something to talk about on Thursday. Then there is the SIB575 assignment #3 that I have to do. GAHHH~ I almost totally forgot about it. GAH. And then the windows guys were supposed to come in Thursday to get started on the windows. I am already stressed that I have to clean my room enough so that they can move my bed and desk at will. Now they say that they can't come on Thursday, and will have to start Friday. Then they say they can't work on Saturday, and will have to finish Monday. SERIOUSLY?! And you notify us TODAY?!  

*talks to self*You can do this Donna! What doesn't kill you makes you stronger! After all this crap I am hiding away and taking a rest.

The Wedding of a Shinhwa Fan Becomes a Hot Internet Topic

After growing alongside Shinhwa for 14 years, its fans have moved on with their lives to get married and have children.

One particular story of a Shinhwa Changjo’s (the name of Shinhwa’s fanclub) wedding has recently become a hot issue on the internet for its creativity as well as the cleverness of the groom, who’s had to endure his now-wife’s dedication to Shinhwa for many years.

The story was written in account of a wedding guest, who started off the story saying that groom and wife were childhood friends. She went onto to mention a table in the front of the hall reserved for Shinhwa Changjo members, who have actively participated in Shinhwa promotions with the bride.

Even at the wedding, the bride and the Shinhwa Changjo members talked about the good old days when they chased after Shinhwa.

As the wedding started and the groom and bride exchanged vows, the groom read,

“My internet bill came out to be 300,000 won because you were busy doing fanclub activities with my computer.
You, who laughed at my shaved head when I went to the army, but cried your eyes out when Eric went.
You, who gave me a Shinhwa CD and a poster for my birthday every year.
You, who wouldn’t talk to me for a month when I jealously cursed Shin Hye Sung.
Whenever you snuck out to a concert, you always called me out late at night because you were afraid of getting scolded by your mom, and I quietly sat there, listening to you tell me about the concert.”

The vow continued, “You probably don’t realize, but the playground where you told me these little stories, just the two of us, made my heart beat faster than a concert hall.”

After the vow was read, Shinhwa’s Perfect Man started playing and the groom began singing and dancing along. To add to the surprise, some of the members from the Shinhwa Changjo table joined the groom, surprising the bride and making her burst out into laughter.

The groom even changed the Perfect Man lyrics “It’ll be hard at times, because you always have someone perfect near you” to “It’ll be hard at times, because you always have six men near you.”

Upon reading the story of this Shinhwa Changjo’s wedding, netizens commented, “Shinhwa is funny, but the fans are even funnier,” “This is why I’m still a fan of Shinhwa,” and “The Shinhwa Changjo wedding must have been so much fun.”

Photo Credit: Kim Byung Kwan
Source : enewsworld

What I am like every single morning

WHEN MY BED EATS MY PHONE

(this is funnier cause I am imagining Pudding doing this)

credit: http://whatshouldwecallme.tumblr.com

WHEN A GUY BEGS ME NOT TO GO

Expectation:

Reality:

Lee Min Ho!! And Daesung overreacting. 

credit: http://whatshouldwecallme.tumblr.com

Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.
- Confucius

( I know.. third post of the night... but I have to post it!)

OMG I think people know.
How do they know?
What can I do now that they know?

Halloween Nightmares

Happy Halloween everybody!
I personally don't celebrate Halloween in anyway, but hope everybody who enjoys this day got lots of candy and had lots of fun ^^

I had come across on Seoulbeats a round-table discussion which was related to Halloween (in some way). The authors had discussed what was their worst (KPOP) nightmare. Some of the answers were hilarious as I am sure most KPOP fans will agree with some of them if not all. I will only pick my favourites from the site and add my own, but you can read the original article here

1. Musical stagnation/pigeon-holing
If artists are not allowed to grow, they should not be in the industry. My fear would be that SNSD would reach their late 20s and still be performing songs similar to Gee or Kissing You. Like Brown Eyed Girls, their music needs to involve to have a better image and not make people barf in their mouths.

2. Outfit of horrors
THIS will never be changed as fashion is a mysterious thing. What might be on the runways might not transfer to real life nor may it be accepted by EVERYBODY. (AKA DBSK's clothes in Keep Your Head Down. *shiver*)

3. X number of debuts in a year.
I have been into the KPOP scene for a good 7 years now? and seen the gazillion groups debut then go MIA.  The rate at which they debut is horrific, as they just get washed out by each other. I must admit, the more recent debuts (2010-2012) have been horrifying as the groups are larger in number, and they all look all the freaking exact same to me. Similar concepts, similar number of people, similar plastic surgeon. I can't tell you  all the names of the members EXO nor Infinite, Teen Top... those I don't care for really.

4. Age
I am not old,nor am I considered young anymore. But due to the mass number of debuts of young artists... I am starting to feel borderline pedo-noona. Most of the groups that have debuted recently, I cannot and should not be liking any specific members because they are all almost 5 years younger than I am. Pedo noona... that is how the companies get their monies.

5. The day something happens to Yoo Jae Suk
(My brother would have a bigger fear of this, but I also fear it.) He is a wonderful MC and has a wonderful personality (wonderful is an understatement,and his wife is a lucky woman... well except for how much he can talk.) I cannot imagine watching a week's worth of different variety shows and not have his face at least pop up once or twice. There will be no second grasshopper. Yoo Hyuk is the one and only Nation's MC. No matter how much an idol is good at MCing or being a host.. there is no replacement for this man.

Oh yes, just a btw that I discovered recently. I remember there was so much hype about EXO debuting. (Like seriously... 23 teasers is 23 teasers too many, at least I think it was 23, I lost count after 10. And yes I do know how to count) Any who... I recently watched their performances (months late, almost a year late, I KNOW!) But I don't really see what all the hype is about. Maybe the gazillion teasers killed it, but I don't find what is so special about them. Gah. EXOtics you can kill me and all... but seriously? Maybe cause I'm older (T_T) but I don't find skinny guys attractive anymore... and to me, they look like 12 Taemins running around on stage. Taemin is last in terms of ranking in SHINee... so not attractive to me at all. Sigh. THey are good singers, I give them that, and they are good singers, I give them, they are good looking, last thing I give the, but they are just not my type. Sorry guys. No EXO time for me.

What can I say?What can I do?But offer this heart, oh God, completely to you.

So I'll stand, with arms wide and heart abandoned in awe of the One who gave it all.So I'll stand, my soul Lord to You surrendered, all I am is Yours.

Dear heavenly gracious wonderful Father, I praise You for You. 

You are awesome, wonderful, forgiving, understanding, and most of all loving. You accepted me for who I am, for everything I have done, and have loved me so endlessly. I love You Father, and thank you for loving me. Thank you for blessing me with everything in my life. I don`t deserve any of it, yet you have given it to me. You blessed me with a beautiful family, my mommy, brother, and my father who is in heaven with you right now. Then You blessed me with the big church family, with so many loving brothers and sisters, I don`t deserve them, but they are in my life, and I thank You for each and every one of them. They are all such a blessing,influence in my life as we continue to edify each other. Please continue to watch over them,spiritually and physically, so that we may be able to spread Your Gospel. Please give me the wisdom and courage, to be like them. Many times they have talked about witnessing to their friends,and I am so impressed and inspired by them. But when I look at my own life, I haven`t done that, and I feel ashamed. I have not been able to witness to my friends at school or work,yet I call myself a Christian. These sisters in Christ have a burning fire in their hearts for You, and I ask that God, please give me the same fire to speak about Your word, the same passion!

Father, everyday there are many things that cross my mind and it drains me. Can I really do this God? God,You have given me so many great opportunities, but many times I feel so inadequate for the job/task/event... whatever it may be. I may agree to the opportunity,then later think "What have I gotten myself into?" Father, give me the strength to go through what You have planned for my life. I know you know that I can get through it, but I guess I am doubting you. I'm sorry God. Please teach me to enjoy life, to have fun, and not to be so uptight all the time. To have the wisdom to converse with others,and just to loosen up once in a while.

I want to be more mature, I want to be a servant for You. I feel like I am not a mature person,not mature enough to be serving You. On the outside I may look the part, but inside I am not developed fully. It is not that I don't want to serve you Lord, but I want to be able to serve You the way You have intended me to. Please give me the caring heart to serve, and to be able to look after my brothers and sisters in Christ. Oh yea, and also a good memory. I have horrible memory, so it does not help with serving You. God I am so blessed to be loved by You, with all the flaws that I have, You still love me the same. Thank you God, for loving me, and for being there for me. I praise You because You are good. I want to love others like how You have loved me. I want to show Your love to others because it is so amazing.

Thank you Father for listening to me. Mould me into the person You want me to become. 

Amen. 

A Gentleman's Dignity

Love is important.
But are you going to measure your value only as somebody's lover?
If it's fate (meant to be), it can't be avoided.

- Yoon oppa

Devotions

I rarely do devotions, if I am tired I don't do them. I am already busy with so many other things, I felt that devotions were not important. But having that dinner two, three weeks ago, made me realise that I should concentrate even more on my spiritual growth because I am so involved with so many things. After this past weekend, God had called me to hit the books again. I received a Daily Bible (Max Lucado) from the English Congregation committee at my baptism almost 4 years ago. I have flipped through it once or twice but have never gone for more than a week. So I opened it up, and started reading. God had called me back to devotions at the right time, as there are some things that I do not know how to deal with.
Devotions from the night before stood out to me (and it just occurred to me that I did not do my devos one night. =o=)

Think about the things that are good and worth of praise. Think about the things that are true and honorable and right and pure and beautiful and respected.
Philippians 4:8

Jeremiah 3:1-4:31, God tells us to admit our sin and return to Him. It's as simple as that. I admit to God that I have not been a good Christian, not reading His word everyday, and little minute details that I have not been following, especially for the month of September. (the following may be seen as excuses) I have been so involved that I give myself excuses not to do things. Now I really hate myself for it, but I am trying to improve it.

Don't praise yourself. Let someone else do it. Let the praise come from a stranger and not from your own mouth.
Proverbs 27:2

This is definitely a verse I have to learn from. I love praising myself, and I know it's not very good. But I love to be praised, it's really bad. I have the wrong mindset and it's definitely something I have to asked God for help.

Philippians 4:1-23 (I'll summarize it)
- Be full of joy in the Lord always
- Let everyone see that you are gentle and kind
- Pray and ask God for everything you need, always giving thanks.
- think of things worthy of praise
- I can do all things through Christ because he gives me strength

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving long weekend, a time to share with our friends (time off) and a time to reflect on our world and what has happened the past year.For me, there is more than the past year I would like to look back on. It just so happens to be my church's 8th anniversary this year In the morning for the service we had Dr. Gary Nelson to be our special speaker. During this time we also got to reflect to our years when we first started as a church. I feel so blessed that God had brought me to this church., and in a blink of an eye it has been 8 years. It is completely mind blowing.
And today we also had baptism for 9 of our brothers and sisters at the church.These brothers and sisters shared very touching testimonies, and I am very happy for them on this special day. Congratulations to Aunty Fenny, Jonathan Lam, Bethia To, Sally Cheung, Enoch Chan, Joey Tang, Caleb Leung, Nathan Leung, and Adrian Chan! May you all continue to your walk with God, which has now become even closer than ever. And don't stop showing others the love Christ has shown us!
Then we had a dinner/banquet tonight to celebrate our independence, and our 8 years together. God had put me in the position to be an MC. To tell you the truth, when I was first notified I was confused at how I should have felt. I felt that I was under experienced compared to many at our church. And at the same time, I was excited for the next experience. I don't really like the attention I get when I get put on the spot. But I felt it was about time that I overcame that dislike. I was very blessed to have so many wonderful people to work with while preparing for it. I did not have to do a lot in terms of preparation, so I want to just thank those who organized the event.
 Polly for being GM, showing such great leadership. Without you, none of the schedules, planning, and finalizing would have been possible. I know how stressed she was (since we were behind schedule) but in the end God was good, and we ended on time! *hooray* Thanks be to God for watching over the banquet, seeing how stressed Polly was, and just made everything possible. Praise the Lord.
Then there is Stephanie, STEPHY! You were such an awesome leader in planning and executing the games. Thanks to the hard work you had put into planning the games, the night came out so well. You gave up your sleep to plan more for the game, and your sacrifice is greatly appreciated! Get some sleep on your reading week~~
Then there is Emily, my mommy. She was part of the games group, and she also came up with great ideas for executing the games, and it is awesome to have one more brain to bounce ideas off of. Also all the good food you provided during our lunch meetings. *yum*
Uncle Simon is the next to thank, for being part of the games team and stepping up as MC for the night. It was a wonderful opportunity to be able to work along side a brother in Christ like you. Again, thank you for the input for all the games, and being such a great partner for MC that night.
AV team really helped us during the banquet, helping us through the difficulties that came in the form of technology problems. Uncle Bill, Elsa, Uncle Dennis, Peter Cheung, and all those who help set up (sorry I don't know your names, but I do appreciate your help!). Without you, us games hosts would have been flustered and stressed. With your gifts in AV, we were able to run the program smoothly. PTL.
Also thanks goes out to Pastor Joel, and Aunty Susan. Pastor Joel for helping us put together a wonderful video and slideshow. With your help, it helped us save time. The videos reflect upon the message we wanted to portray and I am so thankful for that. Aunty Susan is always someone who worked behind the scenes endlessly without receiving any recognition. Alot of the paper assemblies, and printing, and just coordination, I am very thankful for an aunty like you. So selfless and just so helpful.
(The list is getting long I know, but there is more I want to mention)
Aunty Ada and Uncle Peter, thank you for helping us secure the place for the dinner. Without a place for dinner, there would be no dinner. The food tasted amazing, and we are so blessed to be able to have it at a place like this. I saw everybody was really happy with the overall program, and thanks to you we were able to enjoy it in a place like this.

Thanksgiving is not the only time we should be giving thanks, but there are many thanks, even more thanks for things that have happened. I am especially thankful to all my friends, and brothers and sisters in my life. My friends that I could share my secrets to, and gush about boy crushes, share testimonies, and just grow with each other. You guys know who you are, and thank you for being such awesome listeners. And brothers and sisters in Christ, you are all so special to me, because you are my family in Christ. I really feel like we're a family, and it is such a blessing to know each and everyone of you.

Praises to God for my life. I have been through so much that I really see God working in my life, and sort of feel where He wants me to be growing. I have learned to pray big, to pray bold, to pray and speak to my Heavenly Father who is in heaven. Thank you for loving me, through my ups and downs, and just being there for me. Without you, I don't know where I would be right now. You have given me chances time and time again, and I feel so ashamed that you have to give me so many chances. Thank you God, and I love you.

I love all my friends and family, and I feel like such a blessed person.


진짜 너무 감사함니다~

I have been trying to get over him, and for a while now, but since I don't we will work out, and I have been wanting to move on. But yesterday I heard more stories about him, getting to know him more, and and I find that I don't think I can give up. I like him, and and that's the fact.
And recently, for some reason he kept coming up in conversations, and not that I specifically mentioned him but other people bring him up.
He really fits my ideal type, and everything I mentioned to mom in regards to what I want in a guy, he possessed.

I'm so torn.

I was so inspired by the things I heard today. God walking hand in hand with a sister in Christ, and and how to live out God's life while getting to know everyone around us.

I HAD to share this with you, Park Ji Min finally debuts as part of a duo, 15&. This song gave me the chills, it's just so wonderful!! I love it! They are going to blow everybody's mind!!

I’ve always imagined the moment I step up on stage

The warm sunlight, the lights that would 

spill on top of me as I grab the mic

I have so many songs that 

I want to let the people hear

I hope my heart touches you, 

I hope I can see you

Standing in front of you right now seems like a dream

Singing this song that will make you smile

Oh I dream – are you listening to the song 

that will move you with my voice?

For you to never be trapped alone in the thick darkness,

I will forever sing for you

Now I’m starting this long journey 

to go into your heart

When I get lonely, when I feel like crying, 

I’ll hold your hand

Oh I dream – are you listening to the song 

that will move you with my voice right now?

For you to never be trapped alone in the thick darkness,

I will forever sing for you

Oh I dream – this song that will 

make you laugh with my voice

Oh I dream – this song that will 

fall like rain on your dry heart

Like rain that will drench your heart for a long time

So that the love in your heart will not wither

For you, who always protected me, 

who watched over me since the beginning

I’ll draw you out and draw you out 

with a dreaming heart

I’ll sing

Park Ji Min is the winner of the first KPOP Star contest. The young her had a big voice,and you could definitely see her passion for music. The above performance was what got her the almost perfect score. 299 out of 300. 

I was just writing a story of mine,I have two opened files with none finished, and then I thought "I should probably write in my blog!" But come to think of it, I don't really have anything to write about, that I could write here at least. I finally thought of something I could write, not necessarily describing me, but things I know. The purpose of the blog was to share what I know with the world, and what I experience in the world. So it does not necessarily reflect what I have experienced. The following will be random phrases/lyrics/thoughts.

Sometimes one is over exerted can become depressed.

I am jealous of the friendship that Shinhwa has, the way they depend on each other, and how they function together.

The person that I have a crush on has a VERY similar personality as Eric from Shinhwa,

Why is it that in a crowded room, loneliness still shadows over people?

The world makes you forget how to laugh sometimes.

Two patients arrive at the ER, one is screaming about the pain that they are in, while the second one sits silently. Who would you help first?

Finding the resolution to a problem, do you just look at main probable causes of the problem? Or do you look at maybe something more minute, but could be the trigger?

눈물이 넘쳐서 또 강물이 되고 또 바다가 되면 그대

No this is not another KPOP post

Great. You might see the following and think that it is going to be another time for me to gush about KPOP. Although you may doubt me, it's not like that. It was not until recently that this song became a way to          better  describe how I feel. If it wasn't for a friend who made a connection (not the one I just mentioned) I really would not have noticed it. I have an urge to say it, but I have no courage to.
I know it is one sided, but I will do it in as much Korean as I know.
Eagerly, this is something that 고백할게. 나, 기씨, 좋아하는 것 같아요. I want to have hope, and want lots to 믿다, but I have no confidence, and it is because I have confidence that I am NOT your 이상 야자. Don't have the 이상 몸, 나 안 섹시, and I don't have the height.
나 너를 좋아해 기오빠.
I only have courage to put it here, because if I say anything in person, I am afraid that I will ruin an already almost non-existent friendship between us. I cannot be impulsive. You and I are connected to alot of the same people, and if I try to do anything stupid, it will be a domino effect, I know it.
鍾意你唔代表要同你講，只要你開心就得。 我係細膽，咁又點呀？同埋，我覺得男人告白好romantic。kekeke。我鍾意你啲咩？你有型，細心，體貼，熱情，成熟。但係同一時就好小朋友同無聊。你煮野食又好食。。。哎呀，唔好讚你咁多啦，如果唔係你會囂。wakaka. 點解我告白變咗做讚你嘅 囧
guess time to end it. <3

오빤 강남스타일

I felt like I really had to post again, something to get off my chest. It's nothing big, it's just... PEOPLE,  STOP IT WITH THE GANGNAM STYLE! It's not cool anymore.

I really liked the song when Psy first came out with it. Then it was THE song in Korea, and that was completely awesome, from stages with idols to the outdoor stage.
Then it went viral...
And the more it went viral then the less I liked it. Hmm.. That wasn't supposed to happen.
But I feel some people like it cause they find it funny. It was supposed to be funny, but not to the kind of funny that Psy meant for it to be.

And now... this song is so over played (kinda like Carly Jae Repson's Call Me Maybe, but even worse in my books.) I only played it 19 times on iTunes before I gave up on this song. Usually, if it is a song that I like, then I would probably get to 50 listens before I would START to get sick/tired of it.

This song getting global attention ruined the song for me :( I don't know if I would still look forward to Psy's future releases. His songs were so good prior to this release too (It's Art, Right Now). Plus, it's gonna be hard to top this song.

So please, PLEASE don't "Oppan Gangnam Style" in front of me. I won't hate you.. but will be displeased.
And for those who insist on doing it, please get the lyrics right, it's OPPAN NOT oppa.

그대가 니에게 와서 내 마음을 흠쳐갔어
이 제 어떡해 I can't stop this feeling

매일 매일을 또너만 떠을려
너 볼 때마다 난막 심장이 떨려 수이 막혀
네 사랑도 나였으면 좋겠어

내가 왜 이럴가 바보처럼



You came to me and stole my heart.
Now what do I do? I can't stop this feeling.

Every single day, I only think of you.
Each time I see you, my heart trembles and I can't breath.
I wish your love was me.

Why am I acting this way, like a fool?

My ideal guy(s)

A picture speaks a thousand words. So, enough said.

Hunger has stuck me again

As per title, cravings have come again. This time is for a hearty bowl of 돌솥 비빔밥.. Dolsot bibimbap. Oh! And some 잡채 would be nice too. So, 돌솥 잡채 비빔밥. My mouth is watering as I type. Gah.

I'm hungry, so this would be awesome now.

TVB戲服50年不變

Do you watch a lot of TVB soaps? If you watch enough of them, you'll like this link. Common outfits that you never noticed.

TVB戲服50年不變

有時我都唔知點好。。。我覺得我諗得太多，變咗我自己會好辛苦。有時我反而唔諗咁多會開心D。 可能我自己一個人多唔覺得自己怪，但係同D朋友一齊就會發現我嘅思想好怪。。。又唔喺怪，但係總之有D唔同啦。
講開某一位人，好多人都會激烈贊成恨／鐘意個位人，反而我對個果人冇乜感覺。可能唔係同佢太熟，或者我覺得憎一個人係一件好辛苦嘅事。到到果時得會覺埋唔到堆，思想有異別。
講我喺教會啦，我由開始喺兒童部開始教小朋友，我同英文堂有少少隔離。跟著我又做埋唱歌，又少D同英文堂見面。現在我做埋planning head我真係差不多做咗兒童部嘅permanent member. 我好感謝神卑我個機會serve，但係我唔希望我同英文堂嘅兄弟姊妹感情會受到影響。我本身冇咩朋友，而好難識新朋友。我覺得最老死就係團契個班兄弟姊妹，而我每個禮拜只係見佢哋兩次，所以我特別重視個D時間。(Crap.. I'm rambling, I will end now.)

When you are lost, do not wait for people to come find you. Go search for your way back. When you are alone, do not keep thinking to yourself that you are alone, think of all those that really love you. Negative thoughts will not resolve any current problems, being positive and facing your problems is the best solution.

我雖然咁講，但係我係D要lead嘅人來㗎。我好似可以好獨立，但係我鐘意人哋同我講我要做D咩。我鍾意做中心點，但係我都好怕醜。哈哈，睇唔睇得出啊？估唔到呵？我收收埋埋好多秘密㗎，識睇中文咪知囉。

打晒出來舒服晒！

One Week and...

After one week (excluding Monday) at school, I have come to a few conclusions and asked myself a lot of questions

1) This is going to be the hardest semester of my life.
2) One semester that I feel it will be hard to keep up with my current cumulative GPA.
3) I am going to die learning the SAP software.
4) I have to stop being on the internet so much
5) Time to find myself a boyfriend (ya, I know this is random, but it did come across my mind)
(Probably because I want someone to share my stress with)
6) How am I going to handle all this?
7) I am going to be SO stressed out.
8) Am I going to have a social life?
9) And mostly.. FML.

Somewhat I feel like I have a lot on my plate and it is only the beginning of the semester. One thing I know is that I will not be on Facebook as often, if at all. And I will also try to set a study schedule so I am on task. *sigh* I guess I better get started on my readings............... bye social life.

School year has begun

Today I began another semester at Seneca, and I am still up and down on how this year would turn out. Firstly, most of the people I know are done and have gone home. No more familiar faces in class, although I don't talk much, but its nice to see people I know. Secondly, just the continuation from Summer, I don't know how psyched I can get for returnjng to school after two weeks of holiday (that barely existed).

I am not a person to get stressed out easily, but in the beginning I am already feeling it. For certain reasons I will not writw what is making me feel stressed, but it is. As much as I am feeling it, I feel like its because previously I was so overprotected in my environment and I did not have the need to be stressed because of that. That is the statable reason for me being stressed. I am stepping out of my comfort zone.

I felt the sermon from the previous weekend was the perfect verse for me, and it applied that day and I still remember it clearly now (somewhat paraphrased)
"Be strong and courageous becsue the presence of thr Lord is with you"  I have to remeber that God is with me all the time, no matter the hardships I may be going through, God is by my side all the time, accomoanying me all the time, and that I am never alone.

剛剛過咗個週末，星期日，係我廿一歲生日。。。
死啦，我廿一歲啦，老啦 TOT
大一歲，又係新既開始。我要成熟D，識諗D，大個女D。

果晚我兩點幾先瞓，諗咗好多野。
首先，廿歲同廿一歲。。。真實冇乜分別。
第二。。。廿一歲，行動上要有咩唔同？
Responsibility 會更多？
真係做大姐姐？點樣做所謂嘅大姐姐哩？
著衫係唔喺要更加成熟？(我現家着衫都係比較小朋友咗d嘅。。。)
molla...
向廿一歲的新一年出發！

I may seem like I talk a lot, but there are many things I don't say out loud. I am a very shy person....and although I may seem to like it, I dislike being in the spotlight. Being the centre of attention makes me feel very awkward.
It's weird isn't it? Heck, I feel awkward at my birthday, even when the point of celebration is me.
Not a lot of people know about it, and they might think I don't appreciate it... But it's just that I don't know what sort of reaction to give when so many eyes are staring at me. I apologize for seeming rude.
Why am I writing this here?
To remind myself of this in the future. As time goes on, I have to do things that will require people to look at me/focus on me as I will take on a leadership role. I have to muster up courage to face this sort of fear. I need to be proud of who I am and not be shy. Not to be easily embarrassed.

I will work hard to improve myself for sure. In time for my 22nd birthday. I promise.

갸!!! 에릭 오빠~~~~~~~!!!

Random thought

Recently, I had an 'ah-ha' moment. And I have meant to post it for a while. Last semester I took a nutrition class, and learned a lot sbout nutrition. So recently I was thinking about vitamin D deficiencies, which can be more seriius if the person is covered up all the time. Then it lead me to think, vitamin D deficiencies would be more common in Asian countries because they have a preference to keep as white as possible, as that is a sign of beauty. A sign of vitamin D deficiency (in women) is bow legged children. Vitamin D deficiency is not normally noticeable but it is physically noticeable when a woman is pregnant as the child they give birth to will be bow legged.<br>
I have seen alot of Asians who are bow legged, and less Caucasians with this trait. Asians have a tendency to cover themselves up when they are outdoors (with longsleeves or umbrellas) to prevent getting a tan. There are people who live in places where they do not get much sun, and I get that. But many Asians live in places with plenty of sun, and thrh choose to live this way. I have nothing against bejng pale, but they need to take vitamin supplements so it would not affect their child.

Rooftop Prince

Finally finished 옥탑방 왕세자.

One of the few dramas that made me cry in the end.

The story for this drama was quite original, and what a twist for the ending. I definitely recommend this. Beats 스파이 명월 (even though Eric was in it.) by a mile. And it encompassed a lot of things: comedy (I laughed ALOT watching this drama), a steady love line, very evil people, and a good ending. I will not say anything else, because it is up to you to judge it. 

Watch Rooftop Prince! You won't regret it. 

50種茶餐廳食物卡路里表

重量       份量   卡路里（kcal）

咖喱雞飯*                         728         1碟            1047
焗豬扒飯*                         755         1個            1397
咖喱牛腩飯                        721         1碟            1082
肉醬意粉                           659         1碟           1043
意大利鮮茄肉醬意粉              598         1碟            733
鮮茄鱈魚飯*                       396         1碟            634
焗煙腿蘆荀龍利柳飯              621         1個            773
蜜汁叉燒飯                        497          1碟          1047
瘦叉燒飯（走油）                577          1碟           852
白切雞飯*                         541          1碟           836
切雞脾飯*（走汁）               497         1碟           724
燒鵝飯*                            576          1碟          853
四寶飯                              485          1碟           718
沙爹牛肉飯                         572          1碟           735
時菜牛肉飯                         756          1碟           839
菜遠牛腩飯                          837           1碟          1160
滑蛋蝦仁飯                          647           1碟           783
揚州炒飯                             462           1碟           871
福建炒飯                            987           1碟          1175
生炒雞絲飯                         609           1碟         1256
粟米肉粒飯                         530           1碟           666
鮮茄牛肉飯                         784           1碟           901
海鮮炒烏冬                         937           1客           895
時菜牛肉炒河粉                    793           1客           907
雪菜肉絲炒米粉                    834           1客          1212
乾炒牛河                            625           1碟           888
星州炒米                            530           1碟           733
鮮番茄湯粉                          364           1碗           229
順德魚腐米線                       773           1碗           539
生菜鯪魚滑湯米線                  350           1客           341
雙菇蘿蔔魚滑米線                  802           1碗           478
雞鮑翅湯飯                         701            1客           717
鴨腿湯飯*                           784           1客           714
紅燒豬軟骨泡飯*                  819            1份           813
芫茜皮蛋魚片泡飯                  777            1碗          557
方魚肉碎湯飯                       860            1碗          628
冬瓜肉粒湯飯                       836            1碗          628
香茅豬扒米線撈*                   567            1碗          749
金菇雞柳米線撈                     572            1碗          658
豬扒炒即食麵*                      757            1碟         1701
餐肉蛋即食麵                        519            1碗          744
沙爹牛肉即食麵                     553            1碗          668
五香肉丁即食麵                     535            1碗          815
豉油皇炒麵                           300            1碟          486
芝麻汁火龍果田園沙律              363            1客          237
粟米鮮奶炒蛋                         71             1客            94
南瓜多士                              43             1客          158
占醬多                                 86             1份          285
奶油多                                 73             1份          281
扒蘑菇火腿芝士三文治（烘底）   158             1客          416
照燒豬扒三文治（走油）           166             1份          325
奄列                                  200             1客          306
蜜味燒雞翼*                           43            1客            95
蘑菇雞肉腸                            21             1客            31
珍寶腸                                  55            1客           160
港式奶茶                              242            1杯            67
港式咖啡                              241             1杯            67

In two days, I have gotten to the 6th episode already, this shows how much I love this drama. Cause they are super fricking adorable. More screencaps for spoilers. YOU ARE WARNED! These are gifs/screencaps from everything prior to episode 7 (since I have not watched it yet)

Two days of arriving in Seoul and he has discovered ramen already, too bad glass sits between him and the food. He really wants it. XD




Learning to cross the streets of Seoul, Beatles style

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Fire is introduced in the form of a stove. Precious faces.

Changing out of their matching tracksuits, in a "place with four walls" because they Crown Prince refuses to change in the toilet.

The fool who got a job at the coffee shop. Fool is being nice to him. But he is so cute because he is so... stupid.

The OTHER fool who got a job at the car wash.  SO ADORABLE.

One of the reasons I wanted to watch this drama. He discovered smartphone word enlargement techniques, and tried it out on the TV. Chunnie just wanted to touch  Secret ;P

Then they were introduced to something else:

Facetime. More like Facepalm. *smacks face*

His posse aka dumb dumber and dumbest are SO cute together. 

Then there is the other side of the Crown Prince that you see oh-so-often. He'll turn diabetic before he gets back to the Joseon dynasty.

Uncontrollable love for whipped cream + soju

Eating from Pak Ha's cotton candy while she was playing on this machine that is "like fishing"

And drinking Yolkult like a boss.

Surprisingly, Chunnie's acting skills far exceeds Yunho and Jaejoong's (Ok.. Yunho shouldn't act. Period. Or I should not judge him for Heading to the Ground. And I cannot judge Changmin yet because I have not watched Paradise Ranch yet.) But I am LOVING Yoochun's acting in this drama, it's so natural.... and (sadly) SO him. 

Can't wait to continue watching! ^^

Totally obsessed with my new drama, Rooftop Prince. This is taking place as my favourite drama (of course behind Secret Garden, City Hunter, and Spy Myungwol. LOL) [Beware, spoilers lie ahead]

Episode 05 has been my favourite episode so far. So many dumb/silly/cute/loveable things.
Like this scene

'Getting in the back of the car'

And then there are these two scenes from previous episodes:

Fascinated by the fact that people appear on the screen.

Chunnie not knowing how to control the whipped cream.

Back to watching my drama. More .gifs to share with you later. I am loving this drama to bits. Yoochun makes it even more loveable, and his posse. XD