I may seem like I talk a lot, but there are many things I don't say out loud. I am a very shy person....and although I may seem to like it, I dislike being in the spotlight. Being the centre of attention makes me feel very awkward.
It's weird isn't it? Heck, I feel awkward at my birthday, even when the point of celebration is me.
Not a lot of people know about it, and they might think I don't appreciate it... But it's just that I don't know what sort of reaction to give when so many eyes are staring at me. I apologize for seeming rude.
Why am I writing this here?
To remind myself of this in the future. As time goes on, I have to do things that will require people to look at me/focus on me as I will take on a leadership role. I have to muster up courage to face this sort of fear. I need to be proud of who I am and not be shy. Not to be easily embarrassed.

I will work hard to improve myself for sure. In time for my 22nd birthday. I promise.