Today we were counting our blessings in the year 2012. Although it isn't New Years, it does not mean we cannot reflect on all that has happened in the past year. I thought long and hard, well not that hard, but it was definitely something I wanted to share with the adults.
In the past year, our fellowship has truly grown. We have learned to lean on each other and confide in each other. I am so blessed to have each and every one of them in my life.
"They were always my friends, but now it is like we are birth sisters."
Our church has had this problem ever since it started, it was hard to get everyone together into one mindset and all, but this year God really brought all of us together. We experienced things together, and just to see how much we thirst for God's word, it is really encouraging. I don't usually name names on the blog, but they are the special girls in my life.

Dear FROW girls,

To my FROW girls, Frances, Sabrina, Stephanie, Jacqueline, Niki, Florence, Winnie, Tanya, Olvie, Mandee, and Charlotte. Throughout this year we have laughed together, chilled together, made fun of each other together, and shared our heart's thoughts so freely and I am so thankful and feel so blessed to have each and every one of you in my life. We encouraged each other, and supported each other through our school troubles, spiritual troubles, and boy troubles. Although as a fellowship we have grown together, our girls are especially 'tight'. May God truly bless each and every one of you, as you all have such kind, warm, throughtful hearts and also the heart to serve the Lord.

Thank you for being a part of my life, and may we continue to laugh, cry, and grow together for the years to come.

<3

As the day is coming closer, reality hits me even harder, and it definitely shows myself that I am in too deep.
Why am I investing so much time on something that won't have a ending/result?
It's not often that I fall so deep for somebody, and also feel like there is a chance. But whenever I look at it, I don't see how we would ever end up together.
Everything about this situation eats me up but at the same time I should not be letting these things control my life.
God needs to be in charge of my life and the way it would go.
If God has planned for me to have someone in my life or have him in my life, I am willing to give to listen entirely on God.
I am not in a rush for it, I've waited so long, I don't mind waiting more time.
One thing for sure, and it is related to something that happened recently. Something happened to him, and he wouldn't tell me. For the time I was in the darkness I learned to depend in God and also not to ask questions. I am not nosy by nature, but definitely I want to care. I learned to give him space.
I prayed to God, and I prayed to Him, "I don't know what is wrong with him right now, and he doesn't have to tell me, but if it makes him better then I am willing to give up instant noodles for life." To you it may not mean anything, but it is one of my most favourite kind of meal in the world. And things did start to get better an things did happen for the better. God I will keep my promise to you, I will not eat instant noodles, as it is for my health and also because I promised.

I keep thinking I have a chance with him, but it's just the part of me that wants it to happen. Reading too much into things that happen between us, and it makes me more hopeful.
I have to stop.
THEN extra things come to my knowledge, and it's just impossible to get over him :(